CONFUSING !!

shit !!
i don't want to lifes anymore ..
LIFES are BULLSHIT , BASTARD , FUCKS ,
BETTER DIE..
MORONE !!
BITCH !
can i will be like a boy ..
can i ?
i don't want any deeps of feel heart anymore ..
can i will be a fairies ..
can i ?
can i moving from this country into the deep in the sea ..!!
can i have no feeling !!
can i ?
can i?
can i die for awhile baby?
can i have that..
i will death soon..
sob sob ;(
i able to proof that <3 baby ..
love u so much ..
but , i rather to die .. baby forgives me ..
u must read all this my dear ..
baby , can i die for u ?
can i?
why u don't pay attention for me?
why ? baby 
u know what "i already fell in love with you"
u are denied me !!
but , i know i make a mistakes to u ..
can we fight until we're die ?
i want to kiss u like before .?
please , TUHAN , cabut nyawa ku ..
please ...
i don't want have a childs ..
we're still young for this love ..
why we're mets ..
answer is : DESTINY !
baby ... 
didn't u regret with all this ?
didn't u?
please answer me baby ?